Hey Ho!

Well I guess today’s pretty a bummed out day. I don’t know what to say. I’m bored while noone is showing me the way. Wee hee!! heh sorry

To be loved...

Hey hey!! I guess I’ve not been updating much recently cause nth’s been going on actually. Well nothing big I guess. Heh.

School’s been a bore, stress and loads of stoning session. But I guess I’ve learned a little bit. Not much but yea. I swear my physics teacher likes to go on a fast pace. Everyone in class always and i mean always have to ask him to slow down a little. Or maybe we learn too slow… Maybe so. Education these days sucks. Everything is soooo… standard. Drills, drills and more drills. How can students not fall asleep in class?? Pfft. But i guess its for our own good!

Social life has been great for me!! Great great great! But I guess I kinda ruined it like twice?? Yeaaaap. Sorrry.. =[[ But yeaa. I get to see you tmr again! I hope it’ll be nice or fun or something good yea!! Sweetzzzzzzzz

Well I guess thats it.

Ciao peeps!

Fly me to the moon, and let me play amongst the stars. Let me see what spring is like on Jupiter and Mars...

Lonely

Hedley - Never Too Late

Hopin I can run today and get away faster than ever from here 
Another night and who can say if living is better than living in fear 
Heres to all the broken hearts tonight
Heres to all the fall aparts tonight 
Here to every girl and boy who lost their joy
They let it get away 

You know its never too late,
Get up and start all over again 
You know its never too late,
Theres got to be a better way
Don't settle for the cold and rain 
its not too late to start again 
To find a way to smile and never let it get away-ay-ay

Its been too long and we've been down and out without laughter 
No smiling just tears
Were tired of falling down and being such a disaster 
We've been here for years 

Heres to all the broken hearts tonight
Heres to all the fall aparts tonight 
Here to every girl and boy who lost their joy
They let it get away 

You know its never too late, get up and start all over again 
You know its never too late, theres got to be a better way 
Don't settle for the cold and rain 
Its not too late to start again 
to find a way to smile and never let it get away-ay-ay 

I'm gone, I'm gone, theres got to be a better way, I'm gone 
I'm gone, I'm gone, theres got to be a better way, I'm gone 
I'm gone, I'm gone, theres got to be a better way, I'm gone 
I'm gone, I'm gone, theres got to be a better way, I'm gone 

Why do I feel so alone... Why does it still happen...
It's been 2 years...But why do I still let myself down...
Why am I falling so easily... ='[

Stumble and Fall

So it has been said…

To every beginning, comes along with an ending.

To every jigsaw puzzle, comes it shattered pieces.

From one fine piece, turns into tiny parts.

When days, turns into an obstacle.

And nights, turns into lonely moments.

Like an angel gone missing.

Like a devil begins his mission.

Endeavouring to smile.

Differing in results.

Emotions are active.

Concentration are lost.

Dear death, I’m on my way…

No Boundries...

Guess the title says it all. It’s bringing me down… =’[

Kris Allen - No Boundries

Seconds hours so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait
Every moment last forever if you feel you’ve lost your way
What if your chances are already gone
Started believing that I could be wrong
But you give me one good reason
to fight and never walk away

Coz hear I am - still holding on!

Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe

You’ll make it through the pain (or through all your aches and pains)
Weather the hurricane
To get to that one thing

When you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you’ve almost gave up on your dreams
Then take it by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries x2

I fought to the end to stand on the edge
What if today is as good it gets
Don’t know where the future’s headed
Nothings gonna bring me down

I’ve jumped every bridge and I’ve run every line
I’ve risked being saved but I always knew why
I always knew why

So hear I am still holding on
Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe

You’ll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricane
To get to that one thing

When you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you’ve almost gave up on your dreams
Then take it by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher
You can go deeper
There are no boundaries
Above and beneath you
Break every rule coz there’s nothing between you
and your dreams

Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe
Yeah…

There are no boundaries
Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe
You’ll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricane
There are no boundaries x3

God help me...

Waiting for proof that there’s sunset and silhouette dreams.

E

Emotions shall not be expressed here

Emotions should be written somewhere else

Somewhere where noone would think of

I guess this is the only way to stop the worries

Goodbye

Smile for me

Smiling, its not what I’d normally do. A mask is usually what everyone see. One blocking the real image, not revealing the truth. But I guess that’s fair. Trying to help others first?? I can’t even help myself. Well that’s not important. Others comes before myself so yea.

Trying to re-create an image of something similar, but can’t seem to have a picture in mind. Trying to ignore the yelling in mind, but it gets the better of me. Trying to prepare myself for anything at all, but it drags me down. Trying to have it all, but all of it ran away.

I’m not strong, for I am weak. I’m not smart, for I am stupid. Everything that surrounds me, is what came towards me. I thank god for that. But still, am not smiling.

Give me an answer

What am I for?? What is the reason for me being there?? Wait a minute, sorry. I’m never there when you’re down. I’m sorry. Seeing that, makes me think. What am I for?? I have felt what you are feeling. I have felt worse than what you are feeling. Okay, no maybe I have not. I’m sorry. But I just don’t understand. I want an answer. I can’t make you happy… And when you state that line, that is not true. It is clear that it is not true. I’ve not been proved that it is true. I think and think and think and think. But yet, I do not know.

I tried to find a way, to solve the problems that are in my hands. I even asked god for some guidance. One game after another, one race after another, one hurdle after another. I’m standing on a thin thread, trying to balance myself. But I always end up falling, falling into this deep hole, owned by some big monstrous creature, and not being able to reach the far end. I have to fight my way through, to escape and climb that great lofty mountains again, which will enable me to have another round of thread walking towards that end.

God save me from that beast.

E again

I don’t know why my emotions are screwed up… again. It somehow feels its coming. But I shan’t burden other people. I can’t control my emotions right now. Not in a million years I guess. Its all fucked up. No one can ever understand how I’m feeling. They’ll probably do something different from me. I don’t wanna cry but I can’t help it from happening. I don’t wanna feel pain but I can’t help but keep feeling it as though a dagger strikes through it. Its always bringing me down. I don’t know what it is but its bringing me down. When I go up, it comes and grabs my leg pulling and throwing me down right to the ground like a meteor striking earth. Then piles of shits drops onto me, like a building collapsing onto me, or like the sun striking earth hitting me the first. Maybe I’m exegerating. But that’s how it seems like to me. But fuck it. My feelings are always repeating.

I guess I’ll go home now